and i thought ive left all my angst and rile against the world behind me.
apparently ive forgotten abt their echoes.
and today was the strongest ive felt of its comeback yet.
my mood deteriorated throughout the entire day.
came to sch, quite delighted and cheerful.
and all these pulled down, by earthly weights.
concerns that did not belong to me.
please, take them back
all your schemes dipped sugary sweet in high pitched laughter.
this was not what i wanted.
go. away, and return me my rainbow bubble.
all that bleeding from dagger looks shot across the classroom.

i wish to be clairvoyant.
never quite managed listening to my heart in expressions of black and white.
and its not the same attempting to catch up on lost time
i cant be like you, never will be.
my ink bottle isnt spilled all over these blank parchments
not blotted uniquely creative. random like yours.
give me time.
im slowly progressing. from scrawly penmanship,
trying my hand at doodling.
so give me time.
stop telling me that rationality disowns me.
we've already breached that agreement to stay sane.

so at the end of the day, a weary smile
for it matters not, anymore. what others think of you
let them think, let them guess, let them bitch.
what matters
is my able to stand up and walk away unaffected.
had a damn long talk with lev.
love, rlnships, frens. and the superficial.
i like just sitting down and talk with people abt such things.
in that way i know you better, serves for better ties.

so goodnite world.
slip into oblivion.